Write without thinking I keep being told. I hear that from my own inner voice, from friends who are Channeling the Masters, from synchronicities I see being laid out before me. It is my desire to write a book and to be of service by channeling the teachings of Moses. Write without thinking, I keep being told, write from the heart. But what about those days when the writing just doesn't come and the process seems at a stand still. I have two choices. I can do it and trust and hope that it moves me along on my journey or I can switch into my logical thinking mind and push forward in another way. One that feels safer and more socially acceptable. What is this writing without thinking even going to bring me? I am not certain, yet I keep holding on, trying, trusting the process of what I have been told.
Some days, the writing seems so haphazard, I don't not even share it with you. Other days, I feel so blocked I write absolutely nothing, simply making excuses for it in my own mind to myself. It is just where I am right now in the process, it feels like I am moving through sludge, like I am trying to turn the gears of something that has been rusted out since Moses lived here on earth. I keep watching, witnessing my own life, finding the little things that give me that glimmer of hope that I am on my right path. It hasn't been easy, this part of the process has been painfully slow. And maybe I am missing something, a peice of the puzzle, but I can't know what I don't know until I finally come to know it. And if I knew it , it would no longer be an issue or topic of discussion. I would be on to the next thing, in the next place. But the fact is, I don't know anything else right now, so what is one to do?
Today, these are the things I told myself to help myself along...Sometimes we just have to sit in that uncomfortable place of not knowing, of finding our way, or waiting for the Universe to align what needs to be aligned for us to move forward. Sometimes, we just have to trust and do what feels right, for longer than feels comfortable. Sometimes we need to linger in a place to soak up all of the lessons that are there for us, hidden in the details of our lives. Sometimes we need to ask for guidance and trust we are getting it and even when it doesn't make sense to us, do it anyway. Sometimes we need take chances. Sometimes we need to do it all and sometimes we need to just stop and do nothing. The fact is, there is no one or right way, but we can always be assured we are exactly where we need to be if we don't just give up and shut down, but instead keep trying and communicating our Highest desires, whatever they may be for the Highest good of both ourselves and the Universe. Just for today, I followed my own advice, and it got me through to this this writing. For sometimes, all we need to do is share our lives honestly with another, perfect in its imperfections, and without even realizing it, we can touch someones heart in a way we never could have planned, fulfilling our life purpose for that day.
