Everything is Everything

Years ago, at the beginning of what I might now call my healing journey, I thought “Breath is Everything.” I thought that because the use of Breath did in fact change my life. As I became conscious of my breath and went on an inward physical journey it felt like “coming home.” The sense of connection I felt as I released muscle, opened joints, freed trapped energy and generally felt present to myself was at times overwhelming. It was beautiful and it began to create a sense of some inner peace, much more so than psychotherapy had alone. Although that piece increased my awareness of how my history was informing my present moment. Psychotherapy also helped empower me as my ideas and feelings were validated.

As these three pieces blended, breath, body and increased psychological awareness, it became painfully obvious how much unresolved emotion still resided within me. Slowly emoting, I felt like I began to ‘catch up on my life,’ releasing the past, forgiving, and putting closure on old wounds. Again, my sense of freedom deepened.

At the time, I don’t think I was aware of my intention to heal. In my mind I think it was framed in a way that stated “I know I can be happy” (happiness meaning peaceful and content with a sense of joy about my daily life). The feeling and desire for that were all present within me along with the belief that it was my birthright to attain. However, at that time it still felt like it was just out of arms reach. It wasn’t until breath, body, self-awareness, and emotion had come together and healed some of my past that I became aware of my self-sabotaging mind and the need to change my story through positive self affirmation and intention setting. My mind often went to fear and the what if scenario. Basically, I was always waiting for the other shoe to drop and create those scenarios in my mind.

Once I challenged myself to create new stories my life really changed and not only was my internal world more peaceful, but I began to attract what I desired in the external world. As I told myself new stories, inner conflicts ended because my mind was aligning with my soul, interestingly, my body also shifted into physical alignment, and I created a new reality. I manifested jobs that I desired along the way, the kinds of deep spiritual connections and friendships that I wanted as well as a loving intimate relationship with good communication and commitment. The list could go on and on.

Soon, I realized that to climb the ascension ladder I needed to work my life from all angles, and integrate body, breath, emotion, and a positive mind into my souls’ desire. It couldn’t just be one thing or the other and when integration happened, Oneness happened. I felt an intimate connection, not only to myself, but the world around me. Compassion and Empathy blossomed in me as well. I saw the everything in everything. I began to live the “I Am That” before hearing those now popular words. Today, I see how we have the freedom (free will) to create or mis-create our lives. It is a gift. Our nature, to be creative, is our never-ending journey, we will always have the chance to change and create anew when we want to. It is our choice how we want to learn and if we want to learn here in the earthschool. It is our choice to create with responsibility or not, but in taking responsibility, we afford ourselves the best possible outcome.

Currently, my Grand Intention is simple, “Create Love” and in the details of daily life that expression shows up everywhere and is received back at least ten-fold. I’d say I couldn’t be happier or more at peace, but why limit myself? Why not choose to create more of the same. Love, Peace, and Happiness for all (if you so choose).

Spirit's Antidote to the Belief that Life has to be Difficult

Spirit’s Antidote to the Belief that Life Has to be Difficult

Affirm –

Life is lived with ease and grace.
I am in the flow of life.
I surrender to spirit, ending all suffering and I experience only Love in my life.
I am joyful, body, mind, spirit, emotions, I Am.
I am perfect health in all dimensions, all lifetimes, on all levels of my being.
Every cell, tissue, organ, muscle, gland, nerve, and bone functions optimally, vibrates at the highest possible level and is filled with Light.
I resonate with Love through every fiber of my being.

This is the lesson and whether you live it for one minute, one year or another 100, once the lesson is learned, you are free.
Fight no more, there never was a war, it was simply your belief that life was difficult that created a conflict within.
Surrender to peace, to Spirit, to ease and simplicity.
Surrender means live completely and freely in acceptance without worry of the outcome.
The outcome is always perfect in the eyes of Spirit, as it simply prepares us for what is next.
Surrender to being here now, moments can seem like lifetimes if we just let them.
You never had to fight for anything, not even your own life, there never was a war.
Value Peace and you will Value Your True Self.

Songs of the Heart

Heartache,
Tears,
Grief,
Sadness,
Mourning a loss…of what, I don’t know?

The client is coming
I ask for guidance
How can I help this part of me (of us) that is pain?

Quickly I hear the answer…Allow.

I breathe, I feel, I know what he feels
Emotions just below the surface

I acknowledge
I return to grace
I wait

I see

I offer a Sacred Space to let the heart speak
We each have our song
What will his be, what is yours?

Journey to Love

How can I be in this world when I am told there is so much hatred?
How do I send Love when I am told others are blind and numb to it?
Why try when trying seems fruitless?
How can I know what to do when nothing feels quite right?
Why bother when others don't appreciate it?
Why get up when I only keep getting knocked down?

For every question I ask, I am always pointed in the same direction for my answer.

"Know that all you need to know is Love. All you need to do is Love. All you need to offer is Love. All you need to be is Love. All else is the removal of the obstacles that prevent you from knowing, doing, offering, and being Love. That my dear is the only journey, the only purpose, the singular focus. Love is the answer and until you have found your way to Love in every situation, you have not found your way at all."

And what about when I have forgotten?

"You will be reminded by encountering a situation that touches your heart, whether it be something personal, a TV show, a story told by a friend, something you read or see on a commercial, it only takes a moment, be open to the opportunities and let them help you feel your way back to the Love in your Heart."

Present Moments

At first it felt like a monumental task to write a single message for others to see and be touched by, for how do we know what others need to hear or experience for their own growth or illumination? The "Truth" is, we cannot know, we can only live by the Light of our own Soul and Trust the Divine to Create what it is the other needs to receive. In releasing myself that "knowing"...When I looked into my heart and quieted my mind...The answer was already there...

It is the Light of the Heart that guides us to our most de-Lightful destinations.
It is the Song of the Soul that creates the path on which we walk.
It is the Strength of our Pure Intention that keeps us from losing our way.
And the Grace, Trust, Courage and Surrender that allows us to take steps along the way.

Life is but a process of present moments to be shared and lived. Do not rush them, but instead savor each experience with an open heart for it is the open heart which shines brightly its path.

I wish all of you who read this many blessings from my heart to yours, to inspire you to savor each moment, judged good or bad.

I Am Spacious and Unsettled

I am spacious and unsettled
I wonder what that means
I hear nothing calling out to me
I see life happening all around me
I want to engage in something just to feel settled and have a place

I am spacious and unsettled
I pretend to be okay with that
I feel fear pulling me from the unknown back to what I know
I touch both worlds, known and unknown
I worry I will split in two or worse yet have to choose
I cry out beyond the precipice and realize I am in uncharted territory

I am spacious and unsettled
I understand things will shift and change if I just let them be
I say to myself, just "stay," just "be"
I dream about new and foreign worlds in a familiar land
I try to just observe myself
I hope nothing else will be required
I am spacious and unsettled

I Am

I am becoming
I wonder what or who
I hear the voices of the angels calling me
I see darkness, I see light
I want to mold them into new and beautiful sights
I am becoming

I am becoming
I pretend not to
I feel the pulling of the others
I touch their darkness
I cry for their pain and emptiness
I am becoming

I am becoming
I understand this is what my soul is to do
I say God is within you
I dream that you know it too
I try to show you
I hope you'll hear the angels calling you
I am becoming

I am becoming
I declare my freedom from all things binding
I believe in everything and nothing
I hope you hear my prayers
I live for this moment
I am becoming

Into the Heart

Being heart centered aches a little, sometimes it feels like the cusp of sadness, don't let it fool you, that is true compassion. Really, how can we not ache a little when we offer compassion to a world that is so often confused, angry, overworked, and unhealthy. Know that your heart centered and loving state heals. it heals both you and me.

Living from the heart is a peaceful place to be, it is the place that knows there is no other answer (for anything) but love. It is the place that offers the reminder that we need to "do" very little and the place that reminds us what it is to "be" human.

It's a soft place, a transforming place, a place for all things unresolved to sit, protected until their time has come. It's right there waiting for you, it's just a shift away, your breath and willingness will bring you there.

Path of Truth

Relationship gets easy when one walks in ones own Truth


You are whole, I am whole
I need you for nothing
I love you for everything


You are my shining star,
My guiding Light,
My keeper and what I choose to keep



Brazen you are
Boots and stirrups and all
Glad are the days of doing what you love



Peace Be Free
Stillness Freedom

With dust on your back
Back turned toward the sunset
You ride off
Afraid of nothing
Having everything
Filled with hope

You are
I am
Together, we have been

Tomorrow, yet another day to be seen
For the moment, we go our separate ways
Can we remain?

Have I told you enough that I love you?
That I see the magnificent source of your creations

Has my love softened you enough to feel my pure intentions?
I see you are able to form your own

Have you learned that love is infinite?
There will always be enough to go around

Daily, I pray for your expansion, your evolution, your enlightenment
I speak regularly with your guides
I know you are here to do great things as are all bums and kings

Question not dear one
You are always with me
Always in perfection

I pray you peace
You are my family, my tribe
My dearest, My love

Together, apart we walk in Truth
Two journeys, one path
The Path of Truth

Balancing the Personal and The Collective

Is separateness sustainable? Can we continue on the path of fighting for our individuality and our individual rights when science has already proven that we are all inextricably inter-connected? Are we destined to become mass consciousness and nothing else? Are we meant to all become the same, to become ONE? How do we negotiate our way through this idea that what I do effects everyone and everything around me without feeling guilty for trying to take care of myself and doing what I personally enjoy? Does today's post seem to ask more questions than offer answers? Perhaps, but in asking the questions, I hope you will begin to see the ludicrousness of the some of the ideas that individuals are perpetuating as they attempt to promote "Oneness."

The sum of the whole may in fact be greater than its parts, but the parts need to be as valued as the whole in order for this statement to be true. The parts also need to be valued as individuals, maintain their identity and remain free to fulfill their soul's potential and desire. It is only then that the sum truly becomes greater than its parts. When each individual is valued for what they bring, trusted for where they are in their process, and it is known that what they do can not harm the process, because nothing works outside of the whole. In other words nothing works "outside of Source (God, Allah, Universal Consciousness)," then and only then will the sum become greater than the parts.

Yes, we are moving into a time where the energies of planetary alignments, etc. support community action, a time in which we can come together in purpose and make massive shifts utilizing group energy, a time where it is helpful to support others in becoming conscious, but if we do not maintain our individuality and our identity we will eventually be drinking "cool-aide" rather than making a difference in the world.

Here on earth, we are both, individual and interconnected. We must work individually on ourselves(the microcosm), knowing that our choices affect the macrocosm. When we feel whole within ourselves, we will feel part of the greater whole of humanity. Never was the message of Oneness meant to minimize the individual or even worse remove the individual. The messages of Interconnectedness and Oneness are meant to remind us that our individual choices effect others. Individual choices based in integrity, concern for others, and soul purpose will send out ripples of love and high vibration, they will be present for others to receive if they so choose. Nowhere were we ever meant to give up our individuality for the greater good.

The Blessing in Disguise

Did you ever try to complete a project and for whatever reason, just feel like you were pushing a boulder up a mountain in the "trying?"

Each day we make a plan, have expectations on what will be accomplished and then...Life Happens and we come to see how it was all meant to unfold. We can reflect back on what felt comfortable, what we were willing and ready to express and what we were not. Did we in fact have control or did we not? I am not sure it matters. Somehow, we moved through the day. Somehow expression happened. Somehow, who we were in those moments showed up in a very real way and were clues to our futures unfolding.

What's Happening Now, if we really pay attention, is the very clue to our future success if we are just willing to look at it. If we can just see the Truth of this moment and simply show up to life and live what is set before us and be present to it as it unfolds, we can be sure not to miss a beat of it and remain steady on our path. The truth is, we can only live from where we are at. Nothing else is possible. And even if we try to be something more, we will always attract what it is that we need to set us straight on our course.

Just for today, Trust that all is as it is meant to be. And whatever twist of fate was thrown your way, was a blessing in disguise.

Letting Go of the Story

Sometimes, it is our story that makes us sick.

What stories do you tell yourself?

I'm not good enough, I'm fat, I'm too old, I'm shy, I'm stupid, I'm a substance abuser, I'm an adult child of an alcoholic, I'm a survivor, I have cancer, I'm only comfortable around people I know...The list could go on and on.

Yes, no doubt these stories make up your history, however, they are not who you are. In order to grow and to thrive rather than just survive we must let go of the self-imposed limits we place on ourselves and dare to expand and one day remove the box in which we exist in so that we may truly live. Today, challenge the stories you tell yourself, let them live as only part of your past. Today, create a new story, one that is expansive, full of potential and freeing. Make choices based on this new story. Or better yet, release the story all together and let your infinite heart potential that arises each moment define you just for that moment.

The Hero's Feminine Side

We often think of "The Hero" as a strong and courageous force that fights for what is right and just. A hero is a person who does the right thing against all odds and at any cost. This may be true but these are all masculine traits. The feminine aspect of "The Hero" is a heroic force of unconditional love. Love on a grand and powerful scale. Love is the new Hero in town, a heroic and powerful force that by its nature is designed to overcome all obstacles, conflicts, and hardships. Be a Hero today, lead with Unconditional Love.

What's Your Vision?

He was the good time "guy," his house was the "vacation" home, he avoided me, he didn't communicate with me - even on important topics, he procrastinated, he was "forgetful," to me even slightly irresponsible at times. Hmmmm...This is my ex-husband I am talking about, the father of my child. This has been an ongoing struggle, my perception of him. Yes, I said, my perception of him. I want an ex-husband I can communicate with, I want an ex-husband who disciplines our child, I want an ex-husband who takes an active interest in my sons life, I want an ex-husband who remembers to call-and to follow up, I want an ex-husband who co-parents.

Hmmm, how well have I done these things that I am asking of him? Have I spoken up when things stood out to me as important or have I lagged behind waiting for him to notice and say something to me rather than picking up the phone? Now that I have asked the difficult questions about how good of an ex-wife I have been, the picture is becoming a little clearer. When I became really honest with myself, I was able to see several things...I began to see that my perceptions of him became my reality, in other words, he began to live up to my expectations of him. The energy that I put out there in my thoughts, I received. He also ended up being my mirror. What I saw in him were the very things I did not want to see in myself.

Whenever I get really honest with myself when I am feeling dissatisfied about something, these "rules" apply. What's most interesting is that in the knowing of this, I can re-crewate my life. Become the parent and ex-wife I want to be, think positively about others, knowing that my story is not always the True story and lo and behold, my life begins to become the life that I want. My ex-husband is more friendly, more attentive and even reaches out to help out without being asked.

Now more than ever, and faster than ever, it seems our perceptions and thoughts become our reality. It is a lesson in visioning from the heart for me.

It's a Party

It's been a long time since I reached out to others through this vehicle, my blog spot. It's been a long time since I reached out to others, period. Perhaps today we'll have my coming out party.

The universe does work in mysterious ways. I was in a universal sequestering of sorts over the past 6 months or so. Isolation, quiet, meditation, physical and energetic healings from the other side, changes in my goals, my life purpose and my work. aaaahhhh.

I am reemerging, it has been a fun, exciting, somewhat draining, somewhat reinvigorating, always joyful process. My guides are showing me a snake that left its old skin behind. Yes, in fact it feels like layers have been peeled away. I feel lighter, more deeply heart centered and compassionate. You all are probably experiencing that as well. As these last two earthquakes have served that purpose. And the Tsunamis, well, on a metaphysical level, a massive cleansing for all, getting all the last remnants out of the nooks and crannies. We have been called into the moment, we have been asked to leave the past behind. Isn't it amazing, that the earth has even shifted on its axis. No worries. If you want to read more about that pick up "Serpent of Light: Beyond 2012" by Drunvalo Melchizedek. He talks about the native ceremonies and adventures in crystal laying throughout the world preparing for these earth changes.

2010 is a year of grounding into the new earth energies, creating in community, and living in appreciation of what is. The sum is greater than its parts. What is also interesting about these new energies is that if you are not ready to live in the Now (ATHA) you can still live in the new energies as if they were the old. What you believe is what you will receive. Just know you can now live breaking all the old rules. If you believe there is gravity - it will keep you connected to the earth. If you believe you can defy gravity, you will. The veil is thinner than ever, we are more connected than ever. Our ability to manifest through our thoughts is more powerful than ever. Watch out what you wish for. Your deepest beliefs are powerful and will create the life you live.

You may want to do some "spring cleaning." Throw away thoughts, ideas, and beliefs that no longer serve you. Forgive others as an act of self-love, letting go of old emotions. Perhaps you are saying you have done this already, well, do a "final walk through" of your spiritual house, maybe you have left something lying around.

Anyway, it feels good to be "getting out" again. I hope you have fared the winter well. In the coming weeks and months you will hear more from me as I continue into my new adventures of book writing and film making. As always you can catch me at a "Circle of Grace" - the next one to be held on March 17 @ 7:30pm at Inner Balance. Also, if you are on facebook - you can become a fan of the 501(c)3 - "Be The Example" - as I am the face behind their facebook page. There you will receive regular inspirational messages as we strive to live in integrity and be the example we want to see in the world.

Much Love and Blessings,
Susan