Today, my heart sings a song of sadness and if I am not watchful, I might begin to judge it, for the sadness is for myself as I come to terms with a dear friends' cancer(ing). I remind myself to let them be, to recognize these are my (own) feelings and by nature are simply self-ish. As I experience my disappointment for all that may not be, I come to realize and acknowledge all of the unspoken expectations I had on thee.
What a gift I begin to unwrap, as layer by layer, I begin to let go of our future. Reeled back in from making plans and pretending to be something we are not and may never have time to be. I am reminded to be in the moment and let life be lived by letting it unfold, to find joy in the moment and be grateful for life's little things.
How interesting it is to watch the shifts that surrender brings and the emotions that become exposed. Already, my heart feels lighter now just for having acknowledged its song. I am reminded now, this is how we stay centered in ourselves through life's changing times simply by acknowledging.
I am committed to compassion toward others but am committed to my own self too. My heart has a song to sing and I know it won't stop just because my friend is cancering.
The melody may change all in a day...but, life will go on...And I will share my tune.
