My body speaks to me…Your body speaks to you as well, Are You Listening? Are you heading its Call? Are acting upon its Messages? Are you sharing its Wisdom?
When I was 6 years old, I woke up with my legs paralyzed, there had been no precipitating injury, but I was being held back in my life by fears instilled in me, I was unable to move forward literally and metaphorically in a healthy way. My body spoke that truth, I displayed symptoms in the first chakra, and was diagnosed with Toxic Synovitis in my hip joints. A place in the body where Mother/Father issues are held. If I had been consulted on this case today, I would be asking questions like “is there inflammation/anger at the Mother for not allowing forward movement in the girls life?” “Is there fear of the unknown stopping the girl in her tracks?” It was probably both. In asking those questions it immediately shifts the focus from an uncontrollable dis-ease process into a relational life experience that not only we have some control over, but something that can be worked through.
Before my divorce from my first husband, I was feeling incredibly burdened both by the day to day responsibilities of work, managing a household, raising a child and who I was becoming in our marriage. I was struggling to find who I was as a mother and a wife without losing my own identity. Again the symptoms hit, this time it was in my lower back and spine, the second chakra. The place that represents our individuation and personality as a unique being.
During that time, I put myself in therapy, not only in individual therapy, but group therapy as well. In those group sessions something very interesting happened. I began to recognize that when others in the group were having a bodymind experience, when they were showing symptoms because of the stresses in their life…My body mirrored that. Yes, I was feeling in my body, their experience, I could literally feel their emotions and their symptoms in my body. Especially the ones that they were in denial of or cut off from. It was only through the therapeutic experience that this was able to be revealed. I was encouraged to speak my mind, my truth, and call people on their stuff. I had often done this in the past, but growing up, I had been told I was crazy. The need for perfection in my family, surely outweighed the need for Truth. So through this therapeutic experience, a much deeper truth was revealed to me. It began to explain a lot of my childhood experience. But more so, it freed me, not only to be who I was, but Trust in myself and my intuitive knowing.
Since then, I have combined this gift (awareness) with my training in breath and bodymind integration.
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